That “stuck” feeling

Untitled designSo I am at the end of my lovely three week leave from work… And you know what? It has been a very self-reflecting leave of absence.

For starters,  until I went on leave, I didn’t realize how stuck I felt in both my personal life and in my job. I am the kind of person that enjoys life – going on adventures, challenging myself, improving my skills, self-educating… Somehow, I have lost my motivation to live life to the fullest; to follow my goals and my dreams. That young, ambitious woman that wanted to start her own book cafe business with the best coffee and atmosphere in town, would be very disappointed in the person that I am today. Don’t get me wrong – I am grateful to have a good job and for the experience I have gained, but it is so far from what I have always wanted to achieve.

Billy Cox said that life will only change when you become more committed to your dreams than you are to your comfort zone.

And boy was Billy Cox right. Life doesn’t make it easy to follow your goals and dreams. We have bills to pay, families to provide for, responsibilities. Most of us, when we find a job that pays well, making it easier to adhere to our responsibilities, work for the pay check every month because it is comfortable. We forget about what we wanted to do one day when we are big and we fall into our comfort zones where our lives have some sense of security.

It shouldn’t be so easy to settle for comfort and security… I suppose of it makes you happy, then by all means there is nothing wrong with living in your comfort zone. But to me it is a slow and miserable death. Why? Because, I honestly belief that my part to play is much bigger than a nice pay check, a nice car or a nice house.

One day when I am big, I want to be able to truly say that I have changed lives, that I motivated and influenced my community. I want to wake up every morning with a smile on my face because I know that what I will be doing today will take me a step closer to where I want to eventually find myself. And that is me running my own little business promoting exceptional coffee, providing access to great literature, and educating my customers in poetry, fine art, creative writing and whatever else goes with coffee and books! It might sound like such bit silly dream, but sometimes you have to risk everything for a dream no one can see but you.

We all have our own idea of how we should live our life. Some are brave enough to drop everything and run after that vision, and some choose comfort. We tend to forget that where we are now, is not necessarily where we have to get stuck. After all, we are the creators of our own destiny… Just ask yourself “what do you want to be one day when you are big?”

Never stop. Never stop fighting. Never stop dreaming” – Tom Hiddleston


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